Dec 22, 2009

It was pretty busy weekend for me. I was off for winter break started last Friday. I made four different kinds of cookies. I finished four jewerly, two knitted socks and one scarf. Now I have to mail some of gifts to my family tomorrow. It is getting cold here, I think I prefer spring time as I am getting older and my bones are telling me that they are not suited for cold weather anymore. This Christmas will be my first Christmas without my kids as my daughters are in New York and couldn't afford to travel this year but they are going to Missouri to see my son and his daughters for weekend. I do felt sad about it but I felt I am very lucky to have Edward as he has been wonderful to me.Today my son from Missouri called me on the VP and I was happy to see my grandgirls Branetta and Beverly. They have grown a lot since they went back to thier parents after fostering them for one and half year a year ago. Edward did tried to see if he could find a cheaper flight for me to go visit this month but no lucky due to high flight cost for last minute. I will be fine with my husband for now. I had my hair colored and cut this morning and my husband really like it. It is now medium golden brown. It is new color for me and I like it. I have always wanted to be more of drama with my hair but never had any courage to do that. It is just that I am always aware of what will other people think when they look at me. I have changed my type of style of dressing. I used to just have tee shirt and jeans or jogging pants. Since i got married and I have noticed that I started to dress more nicely and better than before. I believe I am more happier and want to look good for my husband as he is always nicely dressed compared to my ex husband. I took my time to ponder on my life with Edward now. I do felt that I am more relaxed and get more confience in myself now. I often wonder why I had to put up with ex and thought it was all my fault. It will take more time to get more confience in myself fully as there is some moment that I was not too sure about myself.